I Survived!

The dreaded month of October is over in about 40 minutes!! I made it through relatively unscathed. There were some moments where it seemed like it was going to go south, but it did its usual thing and just kept a river of misery running through the month. What did make it easier was knowing that I could just blame it on October and move on. Sometimes, having a scapegoat really does make things easier. At least I chose an inanimate one. I enter the last two months of the year with high hopes. This year has been full of surprises and experiences and change with some time left to ponder. I hope I'm up for the challenge.

Joss Whedon's Brilliance

I've just been spending time with music and some video and some shows that are really grounding for me. I love Joss Whedon, and I found this.

A Message to the Whedonverse

In the now eternal language of facebook: LOVE.

Sick Rambling

I think I have the flu. I thought it was a migraine on Friday and I left work early. I got home at 4:15pm and woke up around 9:00 pm for a few minutes and went back to sleep until about noon on Saturday.  I've had a temperature, headache, chills, and other unpleasant flu-like symptoms.  After a marathon of sleep, I am awake at o-dark-thirty and watching music videos on YouTube.

Here's a sampling:

Stepping into the Light

So, I have spent much of my life feeling like everyone else was in on the secret - that there were fundamental things that I was supposed to know, but didn't and that somehow that was my fault or something that I should be ashamed of or embarrassed about.  I know, logically, as an adult, that this is just not true.  Deep down, I still feel it sometimes, and it often prevents me from participating fully.

So, yesterday, after attending a meeting of an organization that has been in and out of disarray and that I have been a member of since 1989 and have not given my full attention to in all that time, I signed up to participate in a way that scares the crap out of me. Not so much because I don't know how to participate, but because I am so scared of letting myself and the organization down. I think I'm a little bit of a commitment-phobe. And this is the first step in trying to fix that.

And coming back to the blog. I have to do it every day. I think that is the only way for me.