Saturday, December 31, 2011

Happy New Year to all! Welcome 2012!

I wish for you (and me) a happy and safe New Year's Eve and New Year.  I welcome 2012 with all its lessons and joys.  I hope the lessons are gentle and the joys many.

Thank you to any of you who stop by here to visit. I hope you will continue to do so. I'm looking forward to another year of WildRumpusing with you.

Friday, December 30, 2011

2011 On the Way Out

It is hard to believe the year is drawing to a close...time is such a weird thing. In so many ways, the year has gone by very slowly and in other ways, it has whizzed past me.  I feel a pull to look back, but as I have said, when I do look back, I'm not finding anything too remarkable.  So, the last few days of the year are really looking ahead to what is coming up in 2012.

I will have to go back and read the end of 2010 to verify, but I feel very happy that 2012 is almost here.  I have some plans for myself, large and small and I'm excited to start. Obviously, I don't have to wait until then, but sometimes, having a clear starting point, starting off with a clean slate and an easy date to remember for something new is a good thing.

I hope I'm not ultimately disappointed in myself. I'm trying to just go into this with some excitement and also the knowledge that I will make mistakes and I will not succeed the first time (or the second or the third) sometimes. That's okay. For me, the trying is important. The imperfection is important.  I have a lot of lessons I need to learn and I'm trying to just be open to learning them and taking it all in.

Okay. I'm just going around in circles...I do that sometimes.  I'm going to sign off for now. I will be back again for the last day of 2011...Crazy, huh?

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Visitor in Town

I have a friend visiting town this weekend. Very fun. Lots of movies and lots of talking and hanging out and hopefully, some art. :)

I'm keeping this one short.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011


I know that we are coming up on the end of the year in a few days. Last year, I participated in the Reverb10 but I was left somewhat uninspired. I worked on Reverb11 a little this year, but wasn't consistent.  When I read other bloggers reflections back on the year, I realized that I didn't share that experience of learning something, having a most memorable moment, etc.  This year was a year of work and some play, some travel, little vacation.  I didn't see many movies, I didn't read many books. If something spectacular happened, I usually wrote about it here. I had some strange adventures in performance interpreting, experienced some of the usual frustrations and joys most people experience in a year. 

This year, 2012, I'm going to try to see if I can't up the ante a bit and give myself some reasons and methods for remembering. I haven't got it all figured out, but I do have some classes and things coming up that I think will be good for me to start figuring it all out.

As 2011 ends, I feel at a bit of a loss. This was a strange year for me. Pretty mellow in many ways. I think that's okay, too.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Goal for 2012

One of my goals for 2012 should be to hear WHAT people are saying and not HOW they are saying it. Sometimes, the how overwhelms the words.  I usually hear the words, but what I remember is the tone of voice, the presentation.  I need to just hear the words and not react or feel that the tone represents what the person is feeling towards me.  The older I get, the more I realize that most often, their stuff has little to nothing to do with me on the outset. How I react may determine if it BECOMES about me and I would like that to happen less and less.

We'll see how it goes.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Winter Cleanse

I literally started cleaning and going through stuff about 30 minutes after I got up today and I didn't stop until about 9:00pm.  So, in lieu of a thoughtful or humorous post, I offer this video from a slam poet about teachers.  Love it.

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Tis the Season to Be Jolly...Fa La la la la.

Well, another Christmas come and gone. What a relief.

I tried really hard to be in the spirit, to enjoy what I could and try to let go of the other stuff. I had moderate success.  There are just so many things I don't understand about people's behavior and the choices they make.  I don't understand why we have this maniacal drive to force everyone to come together in a short span of time and pretend like everything is "JUST GREAT".  Honestly, it would be more fun and more enjoyable if we could stop pretending that everything is perfect and go for normal.

Through it all, I have decided that I should take up meditation in 2012 and work harder to make myself happy so that it doesn't matter when these little things happen.

I took some first steps that I mentioned a few posts ago. Second step taken today - I'm going to partake in the 37Days Book Club.  Patti Digh is having a special year-long "charter membership" for half price. I'm already signed up and ready to go. Join us!  I can't wait!

I hope everyone had a good holiday, stress and all. I know everyone tries hard and sometimes we have more success than others. I feel like I missed the mark in some ways this year, but I was trying.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

"Home is Where the Heart Is"

I was reminded of this song tonight as I was watching the "Peter, Paul and Mary Holiday Concert". I heard this song for the first time when they were singing it.  This is a lovely version.

Merry Christmas.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Sparkle Goes Christmas Shopping

First of all, yes, I am getting as much mileage out of *Sparkle* as I can because I know it will go away soon and I am enjoying it too much. :)

So, I finished my Christmas shopping today (I kept putting it off on the way home from work).  Overall, it wasn't too bad because I had decided that whatever got done was going to be as good as it gets. The traffic was pretty bad around town, but I was listening to "West Side Story" as prep for my show, so I didn't really care about that.

The one thing that was the most challenging and really put a damper on my whole experience was the number of shoppers who were on their cell phones in the store, standing in the center of the aisle with their carts just gabbing on the phone.  Really?  It's amazing we ever lived a day without being on the phone 24/7!

In particular, one woman in the toy section with her poor husband.  He stood dutifully by watching as his wife, clearly dulled from all the electronic signals zapping her brain, stood in the middle of the toy aisle talking on the phone. Even when I said, "Excuse me" for the third time, she didn't move. Every time I went down an aisle, there she was. There he was. Looking apologetic, but not apologetic enough to MOVE THE CART.  Mostly, I just walked away and tried another approach to get where I was going. Finally, after the fourth or fifth encounter, I just pushed on by.  I did see them in another area later, so I went out of my way to walk through the book section so that I wouldn't have to deal with them.

I will never understand the need to be on the phone every waking moment.  I will never understand constantly being on the phone in stores (or anywhere else).  I can feel my feet fossilizing as I type. I don't care. I still don't get it.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

"Sparkle" Part Deux

Ha!  I have had several addresses of "Hi, Sparkle" on Facebook and a couple of people at work who were game. I don't know why this is cracking me up so much, but I'm just going to bask in it.

Sometimes, you just have to let loose, ya know?

I'm eager to do some art but I have to finish shopping and wrap some gifts before I can dive in.  My Secret Santa at work brought me a big bag full of collage bits and I can't wait to use them. I think I will use some of it to make my 2012 calendar art pages. Can't wait!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

*Sparkle* Holidays

I have not mastered the art of taking a digital picture of myself - my head is always half out of the photo and my arm isn't long enough to get the shirt AND my head in this is a photo of my "Sparkle" shirt - I get to wear it a couple of times a year. I don't know why it cracks me up. Maybe because I don't consider myself sparkly.

So I wore Sparkle to work today and one of my co-workers immediately said, "Well, hello Sparkle."  It cracked me up. All. day. long.

Then I went out to dinner with some friends and they, too, commented on sparkle.  Again, I think because I'm not really sparkly.  A few minutes ago, I posted this photo on my FaceBook page and said something to the effect of "I am considering the wisdom of being called "Sparkle" through the remainder of the holiday season unless a more formal address is required. Discuss."  I'm eager to see what people say to this silly request which is somewhat unlike me these days.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Shopping Interrupted

So, I left work a little early today. I thought I would hit a couple of stores (very specific stores) on the way home. That was before the accident on I-5 south and the bad drivers and the back ups all over town, even on exits where there were not malls.  It took an hour and a half to drive home and then when I tried to stop at one of the stores I wanted to go to, there was no place to park and I had to go to the bathroom. I drove home with the intention of using the restroom and going right back out again. But I didn't. I got home and changed my clothes and didn't go anywhere.

And I'm not sad about it. I will finish shopping on Thursday or Friday. I don't have much left to do. And I have a plan. That's always good.

Plus - good news!  My new Kelly Kilmer art journal class is up and running a couple of days early! Yay!

Monday, December 19, 2011

Reading Time!

I have been searching for something *anything* to read that would hold my interest. Apparently, I have the attention span of a flea now, so it is a lot harder for me to get into a book these days.  I started reading "The Help" and I was enjoying it but I got distracted and just never made it back.  I think that having books in a Kindle makes it a lot easier to forget what I was reading - I don't have the book cover calling to me from where ever I placed it.

I started reading "The Hunger Games" this weekend and I'm very intrigued. i selected it because it is a series and lots of people seem to be enjoying it or at least talking about it.  I'm pretty sure it is a Young Adult (YA) novel, but that's okay.  Next series will probably be the Tiger series by Colleen Houck. I know her from work - she was an interpreter I worked with until she became an author and started literally touring the country.

Anyway, I'm happy to be an active reader again. It has been a long while.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Holiday Spirit

At work, we are having a potluck tomorrow. I normally don't partake much as I generally don't like most of the things that are brought to a potluck and I often just pick up something from the store. Yes, I'm one of "those" people - I bring chips and dip, beverages, store bought fruit/veggie trays. This year, I thought I would do something different. I'm still going to being some fruit and veggies, but I decided to make some "Muddy Buddies" as I found the recipe on Pinterest. :)  Mine isn't going to be as fancy as the presentation I found online, but they will taste good.

Here are pictures of round one:

All the fixins.

Ready for round two.


 Tray #1

Tray #2

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Revisiting RENT

I missed the off-Broadway cast of the "Rent" revival this morning on the CBS Early Show (it was on at 6:45am, so I'm not surprised that I missed it). I couldn't get the video that was posted on Facebook to play so I went back to YouTube and ended up finding one of my favorite actors who played Roger singing "One Song Glory" on "The Jenny Jones" show. Now, I've never watched that show, but I have seen this video - it is Manley Pope as Roger. I saw him perform 2 times on Broadway.

Friday, December 16, 2011

Photos and Books

I'm thinking I need to take some photos or do something with my camera and post some photos. It has been a while.

I'm going to skimp on the blog post tonight and actually go read a book. I have been thinking about it all week (reading) and now I have time. :) Yay!  More tomorrow, but for tonight, adieu.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

New Year's A-Coming

I can't wait for the new year to start. I have big plans at work, big plans in my life, big plans for the blog...

Right now, I'm signed up for several classes. The blogging one (see the button on the right hand side of the blog), a lettering workshop with Joanne Sharpe, a Kelly Kilmer art journaling class and a storytelling class from Ali Edwards. None of the start yet and I am ITCHING to start.  I'm just feeling full of energy and excitement for moving forward.

Good clean fun.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Cutting it Close

Normally, I don't like to leave things to the last minute.  For interpreters, we have continuing education units that we have to earn to maintain our certification. We have to earn 80 hours of workshop/class/training time every 4 years. My cycle ends on Dec. 31 and I just completed the final .125 hours of my requirements. I'm a little bit over the amount required, but I like it that way in case someone drops the ball out there.

This is the first time I have been so close to the deadline - I blame it on having a full-time job. And, I took some workshops in the past couple of years that I didn't get the proper paperwork turned in ahead of time, so I didn't earn the CEUs for it, even though I did attend. Dumb.

So, I have already started on my next cycle - paying for it anyway. I am going to TerpExpo in January where I will be able to earn at least a couple of CEUs.  I have found several good on-line places to do some work and I am working on some projects.  My goal is to do 30 hours a year so that by the last year, even if I don't have to do anything, I will be a little bit over and will have continued to develop my skills and learning.  I actually can't wait to get started!

Now, wish me luck that all the people who are responsible for reporting these things does their job so that I'm not fighting to keep my certification.  On second thought, I may be doing another short one this weekend, just to be sure...

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

All I Want for Christmas

I really just want a week off at the beach with a good book and some music.  And my reading glasses. I want to read until my eyes fall out. It will happen. Not yet, but it will. I am taking some time off around the holidays, but it isn't a "go to the beach and relax" kind of time off.  That's okay. Maybe I will get to read for a while. I hope so.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Headache - Go Away!

I had one of those days today - I started with a headache - maybe sinus, I'm not sure. The kind of headache where you have to pinch the bridge of your nose to make the pain bearable.  Then, I did payroll all day which required me to look up and down from paper to computer screen for about 4 hours.  Usually, I can either just look at a paper or look at the monitor, but not back and forth that way.  One of the programs I use for payroll changed and I couldn't figure it out, so I had to use the manual paperwork this time.  This made my head hurt more and that went down into my neck and shoulders.

In the late afternoon, the sun moves around (this is new for me in my new office space) so that the glare on my monitor is such that I can't see much of anything. I tried moving the monitor, I tried tipping the angle up and down. I tried moving the blinds - no go.  We are in a high-ish building and on the 6th floor so the blinds do not close all the way. Someone once told me that if the blinds close all the way, they create air pressure that can cause the windows to burst. I guess that would be bad, but I can't see my computer for 2-3 hours in the afternoon...I'm going to request some film or something because it is driving me crazy.

Luckily, I came home, took some ibuprofen, had some dinner, used my massage pad on my chair and it felt much better. I hope it doesn't come back tomorrow.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Friends and Memories

Had dinner with a couple of friends from my checkered past. One person I see pretty regularly, so our focus is mostly on the here and now and the other person I haven't seen since 2008. We ate at Typhoon! in Beaverton - it was okay, but Thai Terrace is better! :)  I should have known that.

My biggest regret - I brought my camera and forgot it in the car. I didn't realize it until I was getting in the car to drive away. Bummer.

It is amazing how much we change in a relatively short time - all of us.  We are all calmer and more settled in our lives, a little more serious, a little more focused. Good in many ways but sad in others. There is still so much to enjoy and to celebrate. I'm sure if we were all around each other more, we would get to that - just interesting to see.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

The Real Thing

Adele - "Someone Like You"

I'm taking an online workshop on interpreting music right now and I had to go on YouTube and find an ASL interpreted/performed song and watch it for the workshop. I found a couple of pretty good ones and some terrible ones. I chose the first one I came across and it was to Adele. I listened to it several times and watched several versions of the ASL. Finally, I had to look up Adele, herself.

First off, she is GORGEOUS. I love her look - eyes, hair, makeup. Beautiful woman.

Here is "Turning Tables" by Adele, as well. Just because.

Friday, December 9, 2011

Friday Vibe

It seemed very much like a Friday today and I stayed confused all day, thinking that it was Friday.  When the day finally came to a close, I knew that it was, in fact, Thursday, and I still had a day left to deal with.

This week has been fairly intense just because it is fourth quarter and everything is wrapping up - lots of things due for the end of the year in addition to all the other "every day" things that have to be done.

Here's hoping that this weekend will provide some much needed R&R.  I'm counting the days, too, until I get to take my "Blogging course" (you can find out more by clicking on the button on the top, right hand side button - pretty sure it is the first little badge on the page).

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Another Art Class!!

I'm so excited - I had found a blogger/artist on Tumblr (I think) who I admire so much, then I found her blog. She incorporates lettering in most of her work and it is BEAUTIFUL!!

Today, as I was bopping around my usual web-haunts, I found out that she is offering a class in 2012!  A lettering class!  That's what I need!

So, for anyone who is interested:  "Letter Love 101: Art Journaling" starts on February 1, 2012 for $35.  The class is taught by Joanne Sharpe and her Etsy store is here.  I know I'm probably biting off more than I can chew this year, but I'm excited to work on lettering - it is the area I am most interested in and where I don't really have much working knowledge or skill.

If you are interested in this class or want to see her art work, go to Joanne Sharpe's Letter Love 101: Art Journaling class. 

I'm so excited! :)

P.S. I know this is a little link-crazy, but I want to be sure that I give all credit where it is due.  I don't know Ms. Sharpe and I am not being paid or rewarded to advertise her class - I'm just excited to take it and I love her art.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Reverb11 - Music

From this blog: DAY 7: MUSIC
What were some of your favorite records and songs? What song will always remind you of this year?

Almost all my favorite songs came from "Glee" this year. There might be one or two that I heard elsewhere, but mostly, "Glee".
Loving all the Kristin Chenoweth songs from the first season - particularly "One Less Bell To Answer/A House is Not a Home"...well, really all of them.

"Firework" by Katy Perry (I like Lea Michele's version, too)

"Turning Tables" by Adele and well-sung by Gwenyth Paltrow on "Glee"

Really, any Adele song.
Love Pink's music - several songs. Right now, I'm loving "Raise Your Glass".
I'm also still loving Carrie Underwood's music.  

I spent a lot of my art journaling time with the "Glee Jukebox" on this summer, so those are the standouts that I remember. I don't buy many CDs anymore - just not up on new music too much.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Reverb11 - Breakthroughs

From this blog...DAY 6: BREAKTHROUGHS
What were your biggest breakthroughs? This can be in any area: emotional, spiritual, career, etc.

I think I had a couple of breakthroughs this year, to be honest, and some back-sliding, too.

Breakthrough 1:  I'm not responsible for other people's happiness, only my own.
Breakthrough 2:  If I want something, I have to make it happen. Waiting doesn't do anything but make me yearn.
Breakthrough 3:  Feeding myself (emotionally, spiritually, physically) helps me become more of who I want to be.  I haven't quite got this down though - it is a tiny crack of a breakthrough that I understand but haven't fully implemented/embraced/fulfilled.
Breakthrough 4:  Returning to a spiritual practice grounds me.

These seem simple and obvious, but really living them - believing them - that's the key. I have scratched the surface of all of these issues before (sometimes more than one time) but every time I revisit them, I get to go deeper, find more, commit more.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Reflection - Growing Into Looking Back

I started looking at sites where the bloggers were doing Reverb2011 or Reverb11, as it were.  I did it last year, but I found the questions to be too repetetive and I got bored with myself.  I found a couple of places this year where the questions were more reflective of the year 2011 and lss repetetive, but I realized I didn't really have an answer to many of the questions they were asking.  It sort of made me think that I need to be paying more attention to my life...

So, I still haven't committed to anything for December yet, other than writing in the blog every day and doing some art journaling this month. 

I want to enter 2012 with some purpose and thoughtfulness. I don't need resolutions, per se, but I like the idea of having some questions in mind as I go through the year.  I think reflection is like any other skill - you have to practice. I have practiced in some ways, but in many others, I haven't really reflected in a way that is meaningful to me or to anyone else.

Something to strive for, right?

Sunday, December 4, 2011

"Just The Way You Are" in ASL

I love this song and I love this guy's videos. Lovely.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

It Gets Better, but We Have to Start Now

I saw this posted on facebook. It is heartbreaking, but important.

Friday, December 2, 2011

NaBloPoMo November Prompt #30: What did you learn?

NaBloPoMo November 30 Prompt:  What did you learn from doing NaBloPoMo?

Well, obviously, this isn't my first venture into NaBloPoMo.  I like having something to look to each day that I need to do. I do write a post every day, but sometimes I get a day behind in the dates. I don't feel pressure from that anymore - I just keep writing. It is a way to hold myself accountable to keep blogging.

As I said in another post, I'm taking a course in January on improving the blog - I'm excited for the parts about generating content and beating writer's block. I am also hoping I can figure out what I'm trying to accomplish here - it is something more than just an on-line diary and something less than trying to make my living doing this. I just feel like I have a lot to do and say and see and this works for me...I just want to do it better. I want to engage readers more, I want to keep things exciting (or at least interesting!) for myself and for everyone who is gracious enough to come here.

So, now we are counting down to the new year and some new stuff. :)

Thursday, December 1, 2011

World AIDS Day 2011

Remembering Roby, Dan, Chris, Dean, Allan, Lady Elaine Peacock and many others who left this world too soon.

Someday, we will be able to celebrate the eradication of AIDS and HIV on this planet. I can't wait.

Here is the last scene from "Longtime Companion". I think of this scene a lot...

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Blinking into December

I can't believe that today is the last day of November!  Time does really fly by more and more as I get older.  It is disconcerting sometimes how quickly and easily I lose track of the days and the time.

Looking back on the year so far, I feel pretty good about it in many ways. I think I have done some things and developed some habits that really have helped me relax and enjoy life a little more. There are other things I haven't done (like getting a regular reading practice again) that I hope to accomplish in 2012, or at least start.

I'm already thinking about the new year - no resolutions, just thoughts for the year and goals I want to accomplish.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

NaBloPoMo Prompt #25: Gift Giving

NaBloPoMo Prompt:  Do you like to buy presents ahead of time or right when you need to give them?

One year, I decided that I wanted to be done with Christmas shopping early and I started shopping in September - I would just buy things as I saw them for people.  I wanted to buy things people would really, really like.  As the time went on, I kept finding other things. Then I started to question if the first or second or third things were the right things. Ultimately, I ended up spending about 3 times more money than I wanted to because I kept on buying stuff right up until Christmas Eve.  Instead of being smart and spacing the gifts out, I gave them all and it was actually a little embarrassing.  The gigantic pile of gifts really seemed crazy. I loved giving people the gifts but it sort of reset the expectations to quantity when really my goal was quality.

After that experience, I decided that I could start in early December but that was about as good as it gets. If I see something really special, I can buy that, but for the most part, I wait.

As for birthdays and whatnot, I usually wait until close to the event - these days, if you buy something ahead of time that you know someone wants, they usually have purchased it by the time the gift-giving holiday rolls around.  I usually email myself ideas when I see them and then try to check before the holiday to see if they already have the item or not.

Monday, November 28, 2011

NaBloPoMo Prompt #24: Alone time

From NaBloPoMo November Prompts:  Do you enjoy being alone? Would you rather be around other people?

I know that many people would describe me as an extrovert - I like people, I like talking to people, social time is a good thing - necessary.  At the same time, it takes a lot of energy for me to do that - emotionally. It always has.

For me, I like a balance - alone time is time to recharge my batteries, to let the masks down. It would be disingenuous to say that I don't have my social masks up most of the time - I think most people DO.  For me, I have to have some amount of time that I'm not trying top please others or to figure out what I need to do if I want to please others.  I'm getting better about that, but it is still something I have to work against.

I love listening to music and playing solitaire on the computer when I need to relax. I usually end up in cathartic tears - no reason - the music just moves me.  I also love to read although I don't do as much as I used to.  Being on the computer so much takes its toll and I sometimes just don't have the brain cells or eyes to sit and read for too long.  I know that I just have to start reading more and it will grow itself. I guess that's on my list of things to do again for 2012.  I will keep at it until I succeed.

Right now, for me, I think the answer to this question is that I like to be alone.  I know that later that may change, but for now, that seems like the right answer.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Back Into the Fray

Well, back to work I go tomorrow. I feel pretty rested at this point, but I would love another day off to ENJOY and maybe go and do something. Today, I had some rating to do for a job and that took up a big chunk of the afternoon. I should have gone to the movies or something, but I didn't.

Just changing the routine from the day-to-day is a pleasure on the weekends. Not having to wake to an alarm, even when I wake up almost as early, sometimes earlier.  Not having to hurry to get ready and leave the house for the better part of the day is good, too.

Tomorrow, I have to go to Michael's to pick up Gesso.  I know I haven't been posting much art journaling here, but I have been prepping a new journal.  I found a journal project I really liked using a composition notebook and I have been working on getting that ready.  I had to make the pages thicker - two pages glued together and then something glued on to thicken it up.  I used National Geographic pages. Now, gesso (my first venture with gesso) so that I can move forward. I'm very excited about this journal - really different than anything I have done before. I will post pictures.

I'm also going to try this little trick...

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Happy Birthday, Roby Starns!

Today, Roby would have been 45! years old. I'm not sure he ever imagined himself at this age.  These photos are some of the ways I remember him.
Happy Birthday, Roby.  I love and miss you.

Aloha High School, 1984-85

June 1989 at the Civic Auditorium (now Keller) for my college graduation

Roby at Seaside, 1990

Friday, November 25, 2011

No "Black Friday" Shopping This Year

I'm happy to say that I didn't participate in "Black Friday" shopping this year.  I have only done so about twice in my life - the past two years - and the gifts I purchased were for a children's party for Deaf children in the local area.

I'm not morally opposed to shopping, per se.  More than anything, for me personally, I don't need/get a rush from a good deal or from standing in line waiting to buy things or from the crush of people (or their guns or pepper spray this year). I'm hoping to buy more from local folks, artists/writers I know, etc. In addition, I prefer gifts that fit the person.  I don't need someone to give me some big, extravagant thing to show their regard for me. I would rather have something that is meaningful.

So, I spent a quiet day at home. A little shopping on the internet for items I would have purchased anyway.  Nice to have the option to stay home and nice to be able to take it.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

WWRT? (What Would Roby Think?)

I came home from Thanksgiving tonight and turned on the television only to realize that I had not taped the "Very Gaga Thanksgiving" special.  I'm a little disappointed, but I watched the very end of it.  As I was watching, I wondered what Roby would think (WWRT) of her?  I think he would have LOVED HER!!

I often get choked up watching Kurt and his father on Glee for the Same reason - I wish the show had been on when Roby was still alive.  He was so tortured by his relationship with his father. I would love to see him watch a good relationship between a gay young man and his father. Not only for the relationship, but for the knowledge that something like that can be on television now. I'm not sure we would have believed it in the 1980s.

Just something I was thinking about on this Thanksgiving night.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Doubt and Self-Care

So I have been struggling with the blog - I've lost direction. I started out with a really personal journey and then some of that changed. Then I veered into some group participation, I took a telecourse and a writing course, I've been art journaling, learning photography.  All of this has been present here, along with some opinions, so silly posts, some videos, and some "life reporting" that gets boring - even for me.

There is so much in my head and so much that I want to do and say and then when I sit down to say it, I'm not always there at that moment.  It is frustrating.

So I have signed up for a class that I'm pretty excited about - it starts in January.  I feel like I lost my voice somewhere for this blog and I really want to find it. I am so proud of having been here for such a long time, for committing to regular posting - even when it isn't very inspired.  That commitment really means something to me and now I want to take it to the next level.  I don't plan on being a famous blogger or anything - I just want to be clear about what I'm doing here and what stories I want to tell - what I want to focus on.  I haven't been very focused and I need some help in that area.

So, look for some changes in the future - who knows where this will lead me.

This is the class I will be taking:

I'm stoked to take this class!  For more info, click here.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Headache Free Day 1

Well, I woke up this morning headache free, so that was really a relief. 5 days of headache is too much.  I have had times today when it threatened to come back, but I think the fact that I don't have the detergent smell on me anywhere is making the difference.

The NaBloPoMo prompt from yesterday asks about our passion projects and whether we are working on ours.  I am not.  I did not carve out enough time and energy for my passions this year, for the most part. I haven't been working in my art journal and I think that I have been pushing it aside for time, but the real issue is perfectionism. I hate that. I have to conquer it and I'm working on it.  I really love just the process and I refuse to let my worries and perfectionism stop me from doing it.  Just have to dive back in.

Monday, November 21, 2011

"Mountain Fresh" - Not

So, my headache is still is from my laundry detergent. It doesn't SMELL bad, just chemical-y and persistent. I can smell it all day long.  My head is throbbing and I can't really concentrate on anything.


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