So, lately, I have been struggling with a situation. I can't really go into details here, but I have been looking at my own ability to deal with toxicity and what my contribution is to the situation. I know that I can't change people, so I am trying to change my own response to them.
Of course, my first response is to buy a bunch of books on the topic and try to research my way through it. I bought a bunch of books on Amazon today, so help is on the way.
I go through these cyclical periods where I fall into a pit of despair that this situation will not be resolved and then things calm down for 3-4 months and just when I think I'm clear, it comes up again. I hope that if I can arm myself with tools - at least things I can do so that I KNOW I am not just making things worse - maybe I can break the cycle or at least find some peace.
Sound vague enough? I know what I mean. I guess that's what's important at this point.