“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Today was a good day. I was basking in the after-glow of a thoroughly satisfying performance. I felt like I had reaffirmed myself as an interpreter, I had met my own expectations (which are usually too high), I had a good time, I saw good friends and I was in the presence of a vibrant, moving, beautiful show.
I smiled all day today, even though my hips and legs are a little sore from standing in one place for so long. My arms and shoulders and neck are all feeling loose - like I worked all the lactic acid out of my muscles. I feel like all the tension and stress I have been feeling for the last couple of weeks slipped out of my body and left me feeling very physically tired, but in a very satisfying way.
My work as an interpreter is something that I sorely miss - now that I manage interpreters instead of doing the work full-time. One of the interpreters in the audience last night (who had never seen me interpret anything AT ALL), came up to me and said, "I'm so glad you have this as an outlet to get that out. You need to do this." I realized she was right. It's funny because people think it is the spotlight that is the attraction. It isn't. For me, it is having the opportunity to participate in sharing theatre. I am a storyteller at heart (although sometimes you'd never know it here...), so this feels like a natural extension of that. I feel lucky that the Deaf community has welcomed me so - it is an honor.
This week was a good week. Every day, whether I took a lunch or not (smile), I thought about the kind of person I am becoming, that I want to be, that I am already. My thoughts went all over the map in this first week, but I am just taking the journey. Once I got over trying to define the type of road I was on those first couple of days, it just became a natural part of the day. Eight days down. A lifetime to go. Even if I stop the conscious participation after 37 days or 370 days, BECOMING will never stop.