This is Week 3 of The Next Chapter: The Joy Diet. I am reading Martha Beck's book, The Joy Diet and blogging along weekly with a group of amazing women. The chapter we read for this week was about TRUTH. There are certainly some truths that should not be posted on the internet, that's for sure.
For this week, TRUTH is about the conflicting stories I tell myself and how they affect my life. Story 1: I love being involved in so many different projects. They keep me balanced. Working at my regular job, my teaching job, my interpreting jobs and my theatrical jobs is possible and I get great joy out of them. Story 2: I don't think I can continue to maintain this pace and still commit myself fully to the projects I choose to be a part of. This means I need to give some of them up.
Story 3: People will think less of me if I let go of some of the things I do for them. Story 4: Change is too hard. I can just keep everything status quo and it will all be fine.
This may sound insane to you, it may sound perfectly normal. For me,I am just starting to hear Story 2 and it is a loud story. It is the truth. The TRUTH. Story 1 has some truth to it, but as I get more tired and more overwhelmed, the less truth there is in the story.
The truth is hard to look at sometimes, especially when it is so far from where you want to be. These stories didn't start out as untruths - I changed. My perspective changed. My interests changed. My desires changed. Now, I have to find a way to get from here to there. The road is fairly clear, but I know it will not be easy. People are always telling me that I should say, "No" but when I say it to them, they get upset. I have to stop letting that sway me.
On a happier note: I am working on my vision cards for Nothing and Truth and Joy. I loved the idea when Jamie mentioned it, but I'm a little slow on the uptake. I love collaging and I want to make it a regular part of my world. Once I am done with the show, I may have some vision cards to share.
Next week: Desire. Big topic.