At Christmastime, I found/was given a poem by Maya Stein and I immediately fell in love with her words. As the months have gone by, the poems I have been most attracted to have been by Maya Stein, and yet, I have not pursued her words or attempted to gather any information about her. Maybe it is due to time or busyness or distractions. Or maybe I just wanted to keep her at a distance because her words speak to me deeply and I feel a yearning to find my own words again when I read her.
This morning, as I made my way through the blogosphere I have gathered around me, I stumbled upon Maya Stein again. Of course, it was 37Days that gifted me with another poem called "don't forget to write". There was a link to Maya Stein's blog where I spent some time today. Again, I felt the pull of words and self-expression. Not that the blog isn't a great place for self-expression - it is just different. I'm not sure what this is all leading me toward, but I know that when something touches you so much, you are bound to happen upon it again and again until you do something about it.
As always, I struggle to find a balance. I tried working on the Art Journals today, but I have some kind of block happening. I can't bring myself to the place I need to be to really create something personal. I'm sure I am close to some kind of break-through or epiphany...that's what these moods usually bring. I think it is my own judgement holding me back - what if it isn't good enough? (what does that mean, exactly?) What if it doesn't come out the way I want it to? (does it ever?) I hate that these speculations/fears inhibit the creativity...the whole point of creativity is freedom and yet the mind can be such a powerful prison against it.
Anyway, just some things I was thinking about today.