What's your dream? Is it for you? For your kids? Can it come true?Do you even really want it to?
The way I dream changed the day Roby told me he had AIDS. In those terrifying hours, a new way of thinking took over for me and I still feel the effects of that day, that event. We stopped thinking about our future in terms of decades and years and started living in the now. I think I mostly do that still and there are definitely pros and cons.
When I turned 30, I realized that I had no idea what I was going to do with the rest of my life - I had never imagined being 30 because I had always known that Roby would not be around by the time I got there. I realized that I had to figure out what the hell I was going to do and get to it.
Now, I dream and do. I still have dreams of writing, so I write. I take workshops and keep the blog and write emails at work. Maybe that will be enough - maybe someday, I will write something more. I dream of being art-ful, so I am actively finding ways to incorporate art in my life. I had given up on art when I was young and it is so fulfilling to find it now. I will never make a living being an artist but that isn't the dream for me - my dream is living a colorful life, playing in exploration of words and colors and images in the world. I am doing that and I'm so happy to be doing it.
I would still love to live a summer at the beach, maybe a whole year. I think this one is a long way off for me, but not impossible. I'm not in a hurry at this point, so that's okay.
Right now, my most immediate dream is to take a vacation - a real, live relaxing vacation. It is coming. I'm planning it now. :)
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