I stand on the precipice of a defining moment in my life. Like most of the defining moments I have experienced, I cannot control the outcome of this situation, but instead, I stand by watching helplessly.
When all is said and done, I know that I have acted with integrity. I know that I have been a support to the people I needed to support and that I have provided the best work and have done the hardest work of my life.
When all is said and done, I will have sacrificed relationships, skills, opportunities, health and still, I will walk away from this experience knowing that I did all that I could do.
I have stood on this ledge before - when Roby died, when Hank died, when my father died. I have felt dumbfounded and lost before. I will come out the other side with a renewed sense of purpose. Whatever happens in the days to come, I will be all right. We will be all right. I didn't experience an 8.8 earthquake or lose all the buildings in my community, none of my friends or family have died. I have food and friends and opportunities. I will be all right. It just takes time to recover sometimes.
Good thoughts and prayers are welcome here.
Sending you both. We dont' get more than we can handle, right?
ReplyDelete:-) Cliche, yes, but oh so true. Your in my heart.
Life... what a rollercoaster, huh?
ReplyDeleteMuch love and light to you.
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