I stand on the precipice of a defining moment in my life. Like most of the defining moments I have experienced, I cannot control the outcome of this situation, but instead, I stand by watching helplessly.
When all is said and done, I know that I have acted with integrity. I know that I have been a support to the people I needed to support and that I have provided the best work and have done the hardest work of my life.
When all is said and done, I will have sacrificed relationships, skills, opportunities, health and still, I will walk away from this experience knowing that I did all that I could do.
I have stood on this ledge before - when Roby died, when Hank died, when my father died. I have felt dumbfounded and lost before. I will come out the other side with a renewed sense of purpose. Whatever happens in the days to come, I will be all right. We will be all right. I didn't experience an 8.8 earthquake or lose all the buildings in my community, none of my friends or family have died. I have food and friends and opportunities. I will be all right. It just takes time to recover sometimes.
Good thoughts and prayers are welcome here.